Finding confidence
Hey y’all, sorry once again for the extended disappearance. It’s been a bit of a rollercoaster for me since the summer, if I’m being honest. I finally started seeing a therapist in the fall and learned that I have some pretty significant anxiety problems which actually makes a lot of my behavior make a little more sense to me. It’s the reason why I would take days or even weeks to respond to comments or why most of the time the thought of not being good enough made me too nervous to try to draw anything. It’s also the main reason why I’ve left two different jobs since October, but that’s a different conversation.
Dealing with it has been a struggle but now that I have a better idea of what I’m up against I’m trying my hardest to work through it. Taking a break from Easy was good for me because I needed to work on my relationship with art, but the longer I was away, the more anxious coming back made me. “I’ll post another page before Thanksgiving,” I’d say, “I’ll post it before Christmas, before New Year’s.” Each time I told myself I’d finish by came and went without ever even starting.
But I have big goals for my art and I’ve finally realized the only person stopping me from achieving them is me. This year I’m going to start my next comic project, open up commissions and focus on my Patreon. I want to share more art than I have ever have before. And I want to finish Easy. So! This is another formal declaration that Easy is back. I can’t promise when the next page will be up but I am going to do my damnedest to make sure it’s sooner rather than later. For now, here’s a picture of Joey so I can ease myself back into things. Looks like he’s starting to feel a little more confident with himself. I think it’s time I follow his example.
Also I did start a Patreon page which you can find at patreon.com/kcloudgrappler
As always, thanks for reading and sticking with me. I’ll do my best not to let you down!
Best wishes on your journey- been a fan of your comic for years! I know prioritizing my mental health was tough but truly life changing and anxiety linked with self esteem takes time to untangle- hope the best for u!
It’s awesome that you’re trying to work through it. I know that it can be very difficult because I’ve been struggling with anxiety too. I thank you for the update and hope you’ll feel better soon.
Spent three years on the couch myself. Therapy does work if you give it time. Good Luck.
It’s great that you looked for help. This is often the hardest step and can easily become another thing one does “by the end of this month” etc.
I hope Easy becomes a source of joy and fulfillment rather than one of pressure to perform and anxiety again.
Self-care is as important as finishing Easy! Thank you for the update and all my best!